this is so cool! Im excited for more!
Why do I expect things to fall into my lap? Like somehow I’m too smart to run into the problems people have with things. Somehow I’m supposed to be gifted and make amazing things naturally. I’m afraid to be bad at things. Real shitty of me. I didn’t want to admit it before. It’s true, I have a total complex.
This is probably why I have trouble looking into the mirror everyday. I think the kid I used to be would be pretty ashamed at this point.
It’s a Saturday night.
Everyone I know is out having a good time.
Theres a party down the street. I can hear the music from my room.
I’m drinking bourbon from a plastic cup.
What the fuck happened to me?
Christ I’m pathetic.
To think of what I’ve become.
At least I have bourbon. God bless alcohol.
I know what you mean man. You start growing up and seeing who really meant something to you and who was just there. Now you can enjoy things without having to have company with you. Once you’re not stuck in the microcosm of high school or college.
I have three genuine friends left. Two of them bore the living shit out of me since all the do is poker and LoL, but every month of so, I go by and say hi. The other one is my “sister”. But she’s living her own life now and I’m really glad to see it.
Now a days its really just me and my girlfriend and I couldn’t be happier. As I’ve gotten older, I see that she’s all I really need.
Being “alpha” is easy and most guys don’t quite get it right. They think it’s about racking up numbers, being swollen and showing off. Women aren’t nearly that difficult.
Never make it a secret that you are interested in and attracted to her, but don’t make it your focus. Let it be known that you’re attracted to many girls. Friend zone her first, even if you aren’t her type, the fact she can’t control you will drive her nuts.
Flirt playfully, never with intent. Girls will rack their brains trying to figure you out. Also, remember that you may not end up ever fucking them. But that’s ok. It’s more about the chase, trust me.